Tree, do you have already left me and righted?Past for making your mother relieved, so, you endure patiently.Now her old man's house not at, you didn't want to continue to endured patiently again, BE?Summer tree, I know that I far and far can not compare with the star that you like wild true a, but, it has been 20 years since we got married, the trees are all 18 years old.These in the last years, always at you nearby of, is me, isn't that how you also forget doesn't drop of the star is wild true a."
Thousand leaves feel original lucidity of they of the mood fade in color in 1.1:00 ground.
The morning on this Saturday, she was originally going to have a liking for original sun one practice match of, but heard quarreling of parents first.
At this time, she suddenly thoughted of on middle ten days of month in November, last year, at and the sickroom mansion of the hospital of the Chuan dynasty son hospitalization underneath of the bench of grass up, they Zu Sun Liang once had of the dialogue.
She not from think,say, the first love of failure, for a person's whole life, unexpectedly will have so great influence?An outsider sees to a thus happy family, originally and basically unhappiness.And reason probably and only just ―― how does her mother also can not forget the person of that first love.
"The friend looks for, I know you to me like ……this whole life, meet your man like this, if I still not****, Affirming will encounter Qian in a sky.But, how do?The every morning wakes up, I felt without the pleasures of life ……say so, probably harm your heart very much, but I really think like this."
"Summer tree, I know that I don't deserve you, at the beginning if not because you are dispirited and discouraged, can't definitely marry me, either ……can I am to love yours, I whole heartedly love you and tree, is this still not enough?"
Thousand leaves listen to the voice of father's pain and sufferings, her heart also started a pain getting up.18 in the last yearses, she the real meaning up felt the hardships hardship of adult world for for the first time.
Love a person originally, if have no and he(or she) stands on the equal position, basically there is no happiness to be talked.
Her father has been loving her mother by a kind of vision that sees upward, unselfish but forgive, but, still can not make each other feel happy, on the contrary became a kind of mutual molestation, this shoulded be the result that the person who loves each other hopes to see.
The grandmother die, leaving of many farmlands, make thousand leaves gradually see a quiet life underneath faintly discernable some undercurrents, however, she wants to arrive at this moment and just truely has urgent feeling:Originally, this family is happy happy in the other people's eyes, always all tottering ……
This mind is thus clear, it afraid her heart to fear to.She foolishly sits on the stairs, feel the hands that oneself puts on the knee at tinily dither, but hard put is good.
That's right, she is the agent of basketball in the school department in the school, the student association of grade****, Is a long 1 class ……all people all Kua her ability, can she very clear, know that oneself is in fact infinitesimal but has no dint, otherwise, can't helplessly looking at grandmother to die, can't bite a tooth silent accept many facts that the farmlands leave without a word.
Thousand leaf the summer tree is in a short while silent:"My wanting to go to be thousand 1 is there."
Thousand leaf the friend look for to looking at her figure:"Literally you.As long as you feel will good lead 1:00."
Thousand leaf the summer tree turned a head to see one eye, this 20 in the last yearses such as on the first to oneself considerate times go to of good husband, she is to once think forgotting everything, from now on calmed down to be a good wife, good mother, led a lifetime like this ……can somehow or other, she always can not make she admit that this is the life that she wants.She thinks that she probably isn't a good woman.Thousand leaf the friend look for to meet her, is his misery.
She walks toward upstairs and see thousand leaves sit on the stairs, not from one Zheng:"Tree ……"
Hurriedly the thousand leaves station is started:"Mama, I accompany you to wife's younger sister there."
Thousand leaf the summer tree didn't want to be still heard by the daughter, not from is penitence very much.Thousand leaves are reading now the most decisive of grade three, she doesn't think own cause influence the daughter's studies, even is for life happiness, hence is strong to take heart, say with smile:" Tree, don't worry, no matter all families have much happiness will fight of, you hereafter know.The family that the in this world doesn't fight, affirmation has no."
Thousand leaves came downstairs and looking at station's father in the living room, the always moderate and optimistic father was obviously some at this time frightened, thousand leaves see unspeakable suffered in the eye and at that moment called 1:"Father."
" Tree, we are all right.The "thousand leaves the friend look for to smile to looking at a daughter, the smiling face is unspeakable to force, " husband and wife fight to can not help.The husband and wife who don't fight just Be getting over.Your mother the mood isn't so good today, you accompany her."
Thousand leaves ordered to nod:"My meeting of.― Father ― , and you?"
"I am all right.After a while good.―― I at the right moment want to go out for a while."
Always chapter 54
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Sea pitch and north the light is high of after game end, the practice's river Chuan Ling also walks to ascend original sun one in front, say with smile:"Congratulate senior, win today very beautiful."
Ascend original sun a lightly smiled to smile:"By luck."
"How can?The senior was too really a condescension."The river Chuan Ling also looking at this the ages is from the junior high school, not, probably from the kindergarten ages had no into but disadvantageous boy, so puzzled that the ground asked, " however, strange BE, why didn't thousand leaves and seniors come?Senior be not about lead she?"
River Chuan traverses to also successfully see a to put on haze to always brush past in the boy pure handsome face of smiling face glitter from this.
He certainly also has no from know thousand leaves why the meeting didn't come, however, the absence that sees thousand leaves influences original sun one emotion, he still not from forbidden ground some gloat over the disaster of others.
He thinks that be really too like ……ascend original sun a will also have the person and matter to can not control.
He suddenly feels that many farmlands are really his lucky stars, not only original sun one feelings road top made a not small obstacle on his old enemy, also study abroad in the United States before his entering early Chuan is high, have already rendered up him Chuan Gao Gong Shou.
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Mountain farmer, mountain farmland thousand summer tree of thousand silent leaves who looking at a facial expressions:"The elder sister there are so good husband and daughter, what are you still dissatisfied with?If I you, early even all asleep steal to smile.Really don't know that you are how to think ……the brother-in-law man like that is perhaps beating lantern also difficult seek."
Thousand leaf the summer tree is very clear, own mood, even the only younger sister of oneself is also inapprehensible.However also to, have who will believe, a woman who owns so happy family, will feel oneself's unhappiness?Perhaps connect marriage the experts will feel she is in the complain without cause or have no the matter seek a matter.But, she can not cheat himself/herself along with growing up for a day and a day of daughter and more and more feel her own spirit emptiness along with her, that kind of almost want to make her the choking ego feels sick of feeling and starts becoming more and more clear, more and more strong ……however, what does she exactly want?In fact even she doesn't know as well by herself.
"Elder sister, you have been 44 years old and even if was the graduate student of University of Kyoto in those early years and also had ten how many years have never worked, what did you still can make?Said again,cheap beats by dre, you should also for the tree want ……she read Gao San, result again so good, have already hoped most in our household third generation a get ahead, if be influenced by you could not test good university to how do?You don't want to be a good wife, always should be a good mother?"
Thousand leaf the summer tree saw an eye sit on the outside the daughter who watch television, because this daughter, she just has been suppressing the viewpoint of she heart reality, so, her of course not hopes his/her own studies that the matter will influence a daughter.She thinks that see, a 44-year-old woman, in the other people's eyes, the life in fact has already about finished wanting.If is a men, 44 years old is still the time of pattern to him ……woman's sad place, nothing is better than and hereat.She thinks like this and more and more feels miserable.
At this time, the mountain farmland cherry son walked to come in and saw the living room that thousand a person of leaveses sit at they's house in, not from one Zheng:"Tree, does your a person come?"
"Not, I accompany my mama to come together."Thousand leaves although sitting is just on TV ex-, in fact be dazing, what don't also see into.
"Today our school and north light
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